Ok, another up at 2 am post…. again after waking up not before bed. Lets see… nothing much on Tivo, I got a second one for the bedroom. Almost done with my site to replace LVGEEK. I was thinking about posting it, but honestly I think there are a lot of people that I don’t want involved, anytime you make things local or among a group of friends you end up with inner politics and it just never works out, so my hope it for it more to function on interest only… like I guess the internet was intended to be. Been taking a speed reading courses, actually going quite well. Watching Singing in the Rain, which I have to say is up there in my top 5 movies. Gene Kelley is hot. I think honestly that scene is the essence of what I believe love is. Something that no matter how shitty (rain) things are it can make you feel the best you ever once, and it was a pretty painful experience but I think what I learned from it is that most people confuse passion/lust with love, and anyone who denies that possibility is crazy. Now don’t get me wrong about passion, it is a very good thing, it is the reason we get off our lazy asses and go out and look for someone to love… but passion is just chemicals in your body reacting to each other. Love is what you have when the passion dies and you look at the other person and still realize that life is better with them then without them. Passion is when you think about holding someone, kissing them, fucking them… whatever. Basically all selfish emotions that are meant to serve your own desire. Love is when you go out of your way to do something for someone, and I am not talking like errands, I mean change your life in some way that you do for the benefit of the other or for the health of your relationship, and the thought of your own discomfort doesn’t even factor into it. I think that relationships end for one that reason, they are founded on passion, but yet both parties are still in it for themselves and eventually they grow as people usually in different directions with different priorities. The fact that people even try and repair those relationship proves that they are not in love, because the act of repairing something like that is expecting your partner to change, which right there is crap. Compromise is one thing, change is another. Asking someone to stay home with you instead of “going out with their friends” is a tad different then asking someone to change their interests and/or personalities. Oh well… like I said, I am no expert, but I also can officially say I have never been in a relationship where I have compromised any of my integrity, the 4 real realtionships I have been in, I was well aware what the situation was and what love was and what love wasn’t and can say I have remained friends if not close friends with every single guy.